Anger…can any one tame it….???

Once again I am at my whiny best…. and all because I am unable to control my anger…I just cant keep quiet when it strikes, and my blood boils over…. or something like that…and this anger attack leaves me exhausted… and exasperated…then the remorse strikes with such a force that the tears just keep flowing…the blame game follows…. this process doesn’t vary much each time…I am sure all this makes my little one think of me as a monster… because of my anger my entire family suffers…perhaps I belong in an asylum…may be I am exaggerating (and maybe I am not)…and everyone goes through these things in everyday life…its just one has to learn to be calm and collected (at least try to be )… every one advices me to just shut up whenever the anger overpowers me, I then think that its easier said than done…or I am just too stuck up and accept that their advice is right…and keeping quiet and not giving in to anger is the best policy… quite contradictory… all this leaves me even more confused and stubborn…

Another think I cannot fathom is the fact, that most people renounce food, which I can never do, the angrier I am the hungrier I get…hence the burgeoning waistline along with the increased weight (maybe I should apply to be a research subject for this reason) I am often told the only way one can overcome anger is through spirituality…but when I am angry all I want to do is to thump someone into a pulp…(ideally the person who enraged me)…. most of the time it is my little one who bears the brunt…and this leaves me questioning my mothering skills…!!! I guess I just have to cultivate the patience virtue…no two ways about it….PLEASE GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH….